EDITOR'S NOTE: An unedited version of this story was originally published on September 24, because of a technical error. It was removed and subsequently republished on September 26 after minor edits.
The hidden depths of the internet can offer a disguise, a cloak of anonymity. And the ex-Mormon community is no different. Many have gathered in a place where names arenât mentioned and personal backgrounds and histories are kept in the dark.Â
There are 33,000 subscribers on the ex-Mormon subreddit, a community where church controversies and grief over leaving the religion are mostly aired freely. Just 1.6 percent of the United States is Mormon, but the membership numbers of r/exmormon dwarf that of other ex-religious groups.
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A leak of internal church documents posted to r/exmormon Friday led to the groupâs biggest one-day surge in membership since it started in 2009. The credibility of some of the documents has come into question, as has the level of interest they even sparked.
Internal Mormon Church Documents Leaked Online in Least Interesting Act of Whistleblowing Ever https://t.co/G5hRQLEz7L
â Hemant Mehta (@hemantmehta) September 22, 2016
There's a giant leak of internal Mormon Church documents at Reddit and they're as hilariously boring as you'd expect https://t.co/PRBoc18xZS
â (((Yair Rosenberg))) (@Yair_Rosenberg) September 22, 2016
Among the documents were seminar schedules and recommendations for a representative to the UN. It was mostly a pile of not so groundbreaking discoveries, like the fact that the church really doesn't like porn. It apparently spent more than $118,000 building and maintaining a website for recovering addicts called overcomingpornography.org.
In fact, the church itself brushed off the leak. LDS church spokesman Eric Hawkins called it a collection of âprocedural manuals, work plans and memos with very little important or sensitive information,â in an email to Mashable.
But even as the documents received open criticism about not having very interesting, controversial or even credible information â one appeared to actually be a CIA document â there was still overwhelming support for the leaker, aptly named âmormondocuments.â
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Loyal members of the subreddit were initially excited, and many later disappointed, by the apparent leak fail. But the resilience of the group remained. Thatâs because for many ex-believers the real scandal wasnât hidden in the leak. Itâs in the churchâs history.
In recent years, the church has published essays attemping to clarify its position on a number of difficult controversies, like issues of racism, prejudice against LGBT communities, polygamy and teen marriages condoned in the earliest years of the faith. But some say the essays have just caused doubtful Mormons to seek more information online, and not like what they find.
One person who thinks the essays did more harm than good is Jeremy Runnells, a sort of crusader of the online ex-Mormon community. Runnells wrote an 80-page letter to a church leader in 2013 that went viral. A person born into the faith, he was seeking answers about the its history, naming past issues of âpolygamy, child abuse, stoning disobedient children, pillage, plunder, sexism, racismâ in the letter.
In 2012, the New York Times ran an editorial denouncing past racist policies by the LDS Church. It explained how prophet Brigham Young once described black people as âcursed with dark skin as punishment for Cainâs murder of his brotherâ and called on the church to address its history.
âThe church would benefit itself and its members â and one member in particular, the presumptive Republican presidential nominee [Mitt Romney] â by formally repudiating the priesthood ban and the racist theories that accompanied it,â religion scholar John G. Turner wrote in the  .
The Mormon Church's annual conference on April 2 in Salt Lake City, Utah.
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And the church did just that. Just over a year later, in December 2013, the organization published an essay called Race and the Priesthood, which details its history of not allowing Blacks to be priests or full members of the church. It also disavowed past practices and teachings, drawing praise from church members and scholars. But it also drew more outrage from doubtful members of the church.
âTodayâs prophets are disavowing yesterdayâs prophets,â Runnells told Mashable. âSo this was extremely shocking.â
Ryan McKnight, a former believer who has been active in current and ex-Mormon online groups for years, said church materials âwater downâ its true history. Finding out through church sources that Joseph Smith married teenagers, for instance, made it hard for him to trust his faith.
âIf I was wrong about that, what else am I wrong about?," he said.
But the essays were intended to be truthful and clear explanations of church controversies.
âOurs is a fairly recent history, so thereâs an ability to look at primary sources in the historical record, and we think itâs important for our members to have that,â Hawkins told Mashable.
On its website, the LDS Church explains it launched the collection of controversial essays in 2013 because âso much information about The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints can be obtained from questionable and often inaccurate sources.â
McKnight said leaving the church was a painful experience. He decided to leave a few years ago after going down the rabbit hole of Internet research on topics like Joseph Smithâs teen brides and the banning of black priests. His wife remained in the church for almost a year, and with all his family and friends also being Mormons, he turned to the r/exmormon Reddit for support.
âWhen you first leave the church, you can have an angry and bitter phase,â he told Mashable, comparing it to losing a loved one. On the r/exmormon subreddit, a post linking to an article published Sept. 23 titled âWhy ex-Mormons are so angry,â had many commentators talking about the difficulty of being married to someone still in the church.
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Three years after Jeremy Runnells penned the 80-page letter to a church leader, he faced a disciplinary council meeting in American Fork, Utah that ended with him leaving the religion. A vigil was organized by supporters beforehand and afterwards there was a crowd clapping, cheering and holding signs that said âThank you Jeremyâ outside the church where the meeting was held, according to a report from local news station Fox13.
He said the support ex-Mormons have found amongst one another is a product of the digital age.
âIn the pre-Internet age, when you found an aspect of Mormon history that challenged your faith, you were very alone,â he told Mashable. âIt was pretty risky to come out.â